I am dying inside

after i am back from work last night, i thought of going home but then, i went to baby's place and met his mom and his last 3 siblings Ayu, Eka and Airy. when i reached his place, all of them were sleeping accept baby and Airy. they were just watching tv. when Airy saw me walking towards baby, he was shocked because he never see me before. hahaha. i sat down as per normal and talked to baby. then me and baby decided to go out to woodlands mart and have a drink. so yeaa, went to woodlands mart and i bought jim beam the small one just to share with baby. went to withdraw mama's money then we sat at the park and talked.

i have so many thing to talk about to baby and he can't wait for me to tell him. after a few sips of jim beam with coke in a big gulp, i started talking all the way. baby was just looking in my eyes and listening to every words i have said. till one point of time, i couldn't stand my tears and burst! i stopped and told baby, "B.. hug me.. i cannot continue..". so he did. he wiped away my tears and hug me so tightly. when i cooled down, i started talking again.

after we are done talking about our beautiful relationship and how we should work things out together, we started to laugh and play around. i really love baby so much. even how he much he have hurt me, he's still what i want. well, that's just another side of him. after i had my last sip which i actually finished it, both of us really cannot tahan to kencing already. so we went up. by then, Ayu was awake already and when she saw me walking in the house, another shocked face. i just smiled at her at first. mak also wake up a few minutes later to cook for Airy for sahur. then me and baby was planning to bring his siblings out to newton for seafood. so we woke Eka up and ask her to follow along. asked mak too but she don't wanna come along because she was tired. we reached newton at 4.30am and leave at 5.30am. they sent me home first before they went back.

ohhhhh.. i just had a great time with them. i wished there will be more of this real soon.

today, i woke up late and right now, baby is at geylang with them. too bad i can't follow them along because i'll be working later at night. i hope they have a great time in singapore. :DDD