There you go

Yes i know its been along long time since i last updated. i know that i've promised to upload pictures on my camping activity with baby and so, i did ok. Plus, i add up some recent photos as well. so have fun viewing alright.
Life for me is still the same. But i am proud of myself for not drinking and clubbing since the start of this year. Didn't know that i could behave that well. :)
But i still miss partying so much! I still remember, the last time i partied was last year, Zouk Out 09. What the fuck? Its been almost 5 months? WHOOOH!

Anyway, my relationship life is as per normal. I am still holding on with what i held on the past 1 year and 9 months. Yes, we've gone that far. How fast time flies. I hoped everything will move on smoothly and nothing's gonna disappoint me.
Baby is being a pain in the ass sometimes. I just have to be patient with him. He just cannot accept the facts of being a human or maybe, he don't understand the concept of it. It really hurt me so deep inside but i just kept everything to myself. He's older but i am wiser. Everything that happened, i know that it happened for a reason. If this is what God is testing me, then i'll just have to accept it and not running away from it.

Well, at some point of time in life, i am sad and i cried so horribly for almost through out the whole day. Then i paused in between and started giggling with tears still rolling down my cheeks. Without realizing, i laughed and cried at the same time. And when that happened, people i love or even the ones i cried for would say, "ohhh.. gile rupenye..". When i ponder over everything that happened, i realized that i am either crazy in love or love make me go crazy.

Seriously, i actually couldn't get a hang of it. but i still have the courage to keep on telling myself not to give up. well, that's how sad it is. it sucks and i really hate it.

oh, if i were to leave baby, it won't be so bad as you think because i still have my families and friends. i still have a life to lead. i am still young. i ever asked baby, what will happen if i were to leave him one day. luckily he get his facts right. i knows that his life would be miserable because there's no one to clean his house, wash and hang his clothes. wake him up to work or whatever that's gotta do with care and concern. he knows that he have to do everything by himself because he don't live with his family. No one will be there to ask him if he already taken his meals. But, i am just curious. if he knows that would happen and he don't want that to happen then why he keeps on doing things that actually make it happen? why he have top be unfair? why i am the one who's always giving in even though its his fault? he's fucking ego i tell you. but this is the life i chose and i have to live with it even if i want it or not. what i can do is just hope, wish and pray that he'll change one day.
Besides all that, baby is also the sweetest darling to me. he never forget his responsibilities on me and has taken care of me all this while. he's the one who gave me foods to eat and shelter to live under. he pampers me like no other. he loves me like never love before. i am indeed proud of him because he changed to what he is now. he left everything behind just to be with me. he spent most of his time me me. wasted lots of money and energy on me. after work everyday, he would meet me unlike last time. baby is the nicest and sweetest person i ever fall in love with but what makes him imperfect was just his temper. he can't control his temper and i will always be his victim. BUT! i am still lucky because he never ever lay hands on me like how he used too to his ex(s). his words are just harsh that's all. sometimes, everything he said can actually make a huge impact in my mind. but those words aren't true as he was saying it out of anger. i understand that he's this kinda person and i accept his imperfections. but i just hope he'll change to be wiser. not childish. The reason why i said that because we always quarrel over the littlest thing. e.g. i accidentally scratched him. i accidentally call him loudly till he terkejut. mcm lame kan the reasons? that's i say die mcm budak kecik.
sometimes, when i am too angry, i will say, "yek eleh, kene cerkau cket pon saket. buat tattoo tk saket ar ehk?" HAHAHAHAHA. i know i am being rude but wtf? common la, u can just forgive and forget what about things like that. but when it comes to him who accidentally scratched me or terkejutkn me, i will just be cool and nothing happen. Bloody idiot! HAHAHA.

But whatever it is, i still love him the same from the start i knew him. my feelings hasn't fade a single bit infect, it just gets stronger.
maybe what i am going through is karma for treating my ex(s) so badly. but why the hell my retribution has to come at this point of life? pantaaaat. its okay, i still accept it with patience.
i hope one day, karma will smack him hard on is face! hehehehe.

i love my boyfriend laaaaa! getting engage sooooon! ^^
Currently, i am browsing through websites to look for pretty cupcakes! And i am going Mustafa Centre either tonight or tomorrow to just take a look for the watched, belts and wallets there.

okay, now i am so fucked up. i lost all the songs in my ipod just to upload pictures inside. mcm sial arrr. not only songs okay. but i lose all the videos as well. pey pantatttttt!