Monday blues

My weekend was spent beautifully with Baby of course. We went to watch Santau on SUnday night. The movie was funny yet scary as well. Hahaha. Yes, Baby and me enjoyed the movie.

Right now, I am just lying down wearing the Slendertone while waiting for Baby to finish work. Actually when i was on my way back from work, he messaged me that he's about to finish work soon. But even when i reached home now like 2 hours after he messaged me, he still haven't finish yet.

Yesterday, after Baby sent me home, he called me and we talked. Sunddenly i said, "B.. Dah lame kite tak gadoh ehk.." And he answered, "Asl? B nk gadoh?" HAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHA. I don't know why but its so funny. From the start of 2010, our relationship is so fruitful. I love it so much. And hope it'll stay this way for as long as it can be. (:

Haix.. Most of the time, you may look at me and think that i am happy. But somehow, you guys don't know that i do feel sad at times and it hurts a lot. Not because of Baby but its because of my own flesh and blood.

Well, i know that to you, i don't know how to take care of my own things because i kept spoiling and losing things. Well, i admit that i am clumsy. And that's my imperfection. It either you can accept it ot not. But you don't have to give me high hopes you know. If you don't wanna buy for me because you're afraid that i might lose it or spoil it then just say it. You don't have to say, "When i get my bonus, I buy for you k." You know, giving high hopes to people is not good as it might make them feel bad. I was really waiting for it to come but at the end of the day, "Habuk pon takde." I don't ask for much, really. If you don't wanna buy just say it.

I can save up my money and buy it for myself. Sometimes, whatever you said makes me feel on cloud 9 but actually, there's no result. You might as well buy things for yourself and when you're left with nothing them you think of me and then, you're say, "Takpela, tunggu next gaji." Takpelaaa. Tak payah kasi apape k. I think when you said that you're gonna "Bikin kreta tu" when i already get my license pon i think takkan jadi.

You know what i feel? I feel like people prioritize you more then me. I think if i kahwin pon i have to use most of my own money unlike you. If i am in need of help about financial pon susah nak dapat unlike you. People kept saying, "Kesian die.." towards you. But i think people should pay more attention to me now and kesiankan me more.

Haiya, sometimes, i am so lazy to talk about this but what to do? I have no one else to pour this feeling out accept for my boyfriend. Luckily Baby feel me because he's also encountering this kinda situation from his own flesh and blood too. Pity us ehk b. Sape yg kesiankan kite. Kite dah macam anak kurang kasih sayang. Luckily i have baby and he have me. Or else, MATILAH KITE. Haixxx. Dah la, bobal cni abez cni. At least i am happy that YOU love me. And i love you too. I still tresure and cherish you always. Sorry to trouble you a lot.. And thanks for everything that you've done for me or even, bought for me. Really appreciate it. HUGSS!

Hmmmmmms. I hope i can get married as soon as possible and live my own life with my own husband and kids. OMG. How cool is that sia. Really can't wait for the day to arrive.

Oh yea, I really can't wait for CNY sey. Going to JB with baby and spend time with his families there. Maybe going Kota Tinggi to mandi air terjun or Mersing for chalet. Its gonna be 19th Monthsary cum CNY cum Valentine's Day. Whooohoo! Can't wait! Long holiday should be spend with baby because it worth much better!

Oklah, I wanna rest right now because i know that baby is reaching anytime from now. I miss him loads! And i'll update soon alright.