Too much to enter

That is soooo real can?

Me: B, i tak sangke ape u uat n ckp pat i tadi.. U mcm dh tk syg i lagi.. I tau i uat u tak syg i tapi tak terlintas pon dlm pikiran i nk bodo bodokn u.. I tau ape i akan dpt alau i uat tu sume.. I syg u b.. I tkkn uat tu sume.. B tkmola ikotkn perasaan u sgt.. U sedar tak ape u sume tadi? U maki i mcm there's no tomorrow.. Mmg i saket hati tapi ape nk uat alau dh syg.. I stakat bole diam n explain pat u yg benar. Tapi u ego, u tau u nk menang je.. U tau u sorg jek btol dlm dunie nie.. B, i respect u n u shuld noe dat i tkkn gie clubbing tanpe u.. I tknk pon gie tanpe u.. I cume ajak u jek tapi bile u kate u tknk gie den that's it, i pon tknk gie.. B, i tkkn sia siakn u la b.. Tkkn u tk tau yg slame nie i uat n ckp sume ihklas sari hati? N i tkkn terkejut alau 1 ari u pukol i psl i tau u nye org tkle sabar sgt.. Mmg i takot bile hati tu akan tibe tapi i akan sabar n telan segalanye sendiri.. Kate kate u sume kasar tapi i tau dlm hati u, u syg i. Tapi cube b ltk diri b pat situation i, b tau betape peritnye i rase? Kdg kdg, i rase mcm i nie tk sesuai utk u psl i slalu uat u mrh n benci i tapi i tau i bole uat u syg i babtu i won't stop being patient. Pls b, i love u n i am sori 4 everything. I tried my very best to 2 pujok u tadi tapi tak tercapai. Naseb baek i dpt kiss b byk byk bile b tgh slp.. B pikir, alau i tak syg u b, i dh lame tglkn u.. U tgk je mcmne u treat i tapi i sabar.. I tau nie sume skejap je.. Nnt dh ok dh syg syg.. I tak sabar nk syg syg n manje manje dgn u.. Bsok k b? I janji i baek baek dgn u bsok.. B pon k.. Skrg i tknk bbl psl nie lagi. I am very sori. Nytes dear! Love u! Muaaaaaaaaahss!!!
(And thats one hell of a 10 page message!)

Baby: B i aru naek train..b sal smlm i btol2 sorie k..i tau i sala slalu pikir yg bkn2..tpi laui nga mara memang mcm gitu,tpi laen kali i try to cntrol my temper n tknk ingat yg bkn2 k shyg..i shyg u sey,mungkin sal shyg sgt tu pasal i slalu ingat bkn2 pastu nk mara2..baby im sorie k..i sorie byk2..i tknk uat u sedih agy sorie k..

Me: Tkpe.. Naseb baek hati i lembut senang maafkn org walau mcmne org tu saketkn hati i.. I tau u syg sgt pat i till ure over-protective of me smpi pikir bkn2 sume.. Tapi i harap u pikir sblom u ckp tu sume laen kali.. Pikir psl perasaan i jgak psl bkn u sorg je hidop dlm dunie nie.. I tkkn lupe hari mcm gini.. 17 Feb n 5 Mar has made a huge impact in my life with u.. U dun worry b.. I won't leave u no matter what n i won't be surprise if diz thing happens again.. But i hope things will improve.. I dun mind my heartaches as long as ure happy n satified.. I love u n pls tkc.. Have proper meals ok.. Dun only eat burger.. I love u n i am sori 4 everything too..

well, yesterday i quarelled with baby. he was so harsh towards me but i just stay calm. he thought that i wanna lie to him because i told him i need to go home and help mama today at work. he thought that i wanna go clubbing. haha. baby babyy.. he's been too over-protective laaaa.. i know he love me but he don't have to act like how he did yesterday. really hurts me alot! seriously! but everything is alright now. only that i can't stop crying when i think about what happened yesterday. n when we say we love each other by the phone, tears keep rolling down my cheeks. damn i love baby so much and no one can separate us. baby, i hope things will work out well. just bear this is mind, we have to go through this together.

and its funny for me to message him in malay because i am not used to it when it comes to this kinda stuffs. im used to message in english but at a 2nd thought, its hard for him to understand so i have to stress myself up to translate it in malay. if just normal qns la what ure doing n stuffs, malay is easy! hahahaha.

anyways, reading darling isma's blog realy made me jealous because i can't enjoy good times with them yesterday to club. damnnn!!! its alright, i'll just wait till baby bring me to club because i won't go club without him! hehe.

and just now, i woke up so early in the morning and followed mama to work to help her because he coolie cannot make it as her dad is very sick in Melaka. tomorrow i'll be helping mama too. but will be back home early! then i am gonna meet baby as i miss him so much!!!!! today, i am very tired thats why i made a decision to only meet him tomorrow. and also, baby is having his practical till 10.10pm later. will be waiting for him cause i wanna hang on the phone till i fall asleep tonight. SAYANG BABY!!!!!!

*i miss adeq! so long didn't meet her! and not forgotten, Mel. :)